And so, does it sometimes seem that you move one step forwards and two steps back?
Well at least you are moving.....and so it seems to have been with me over the last few months. We have progressed forward from the passing of my father in law and the readjustment that family has had to make and now a close friend has had to face the terror of having her son become so ill that she almost lost him.
To see how she has been suffering has been awful and it has also meant that such a huge life issue has made her rethink her priorities and reassess her own life in the aftermath - her total commitment is now to her sons recovery.
In the end, if we do not have our health and energy to make those steps either forward or back it can be a very difficult and hard place.
Its can put all of our small trivial issues into greater perspective when we see someone close to us suffer when their world falls apart.
So I continue to move forward and back but in the end - that is only the dance that we call life.
Thursday, 23 June 2011
Monday, 6 June 2011
Back Again
Its been a while ut somehow words have failed me recently...specifically "public" words. Not only did my family begin recovering form the passing of my mother, but in the recent week we also were shocked by the sudden death of my father in law,who was not a well man, but we also did not expect him to go just yet.
So now two more empty seats at the Christmas table this year - it will be a difficult one for sure.
On the other hand we have a new baby pup called Loki who has given us great joy. He is only 10 weeks old and is sleeping soundly here next to me on the couch as I write. My muse has returned!!
Maybe the next step will be getting back to some painting?
So life , as always, is full of ups and downs.
Death and illness are sobering times when we are taken back to our basic emotions. When all of a sudden all that we OWN seems to no longer matter, we are prepared to sell everything and lose it all for the pain to stop and for the hurt to finish and for our health to return or our loved one be returned to us.
It is a chance to remember what really matters and for me to get as much out of life as I can because in the end all that is left is a memory.
So now two more empty seats at the Christmas table this year - it will be a difficult one for sure.
On the other hand we have a new baby pup called Loki who has given us great joy. He is only 10 weeks old and is sleeping soundly here next to me on the couch as I write. My muse has returned!!
Maybe the next step will be getting back to some painting?
So life , as always, is full of ups and downs.
Death and illness are sobering times when we are taken back to our basic emotions. When all of a sudden all that we OWN seems to no longer matter, we are prepared to sell everything and lose it all for the pain to stop and for the hurt to finish and for our health to return or our loved one be returned to us.
It is a chance to remember what really matters and for me to get as much out of life as I can because in the end all that is left is a memory.
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